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I feel on top of the world!  2 pounds gone and more to go.  I “secretly” thought I wouldn’t have a tremendous weight drop the first week, but honestly hoped for more!  2 pounds is good for me.

I’m 35 - and I noticed something, with this last minor weight gain when I fell off track - the weight came back in my hips and butt.  No where else, I still look good in my more fitted shirts, I didn’t gain any extra rolls or love handles but it’s all in my hips and butt area.  The waist band on my favorite jeans is fine, they are just tight in the hips and butt.

I think I’ve hit that “time in my life” where the lower area of my body will be the weight gain area and not the rest and I don’t like that. I had always been the person that gained all over and could easily “hide” it in the clothes I wore.  Not now, I see it in the mirror and no exactly where my recent gain went.

Getting older stinks!

It is absolutely gorgeous outside!  It’s supposed to be in the seventies today and I’m thrilled!  This winter has been way to long and I’ve been crabby way to long also!  LOL

I’m taking a break from work and going for a walk with the dog.  I like taking him with because it’s not me walking the dog - it’s him walking me and he gets me to move even more!

Well, I just completed one major work load and I’m on to my next project.

These past few days have been extremely rough drinking my water.  Why is that?  It was never this difficult before.  Also, I’ve had the strangest cravings for grapefruit juice also.  Odd!

Eating wise - excellent at watching my portions - problem is, I get so busy I forget to eat and then when I notice those hunger pains I’m starving mad!  I need to work harder at getting in meals and snacks every few hours.  This is what works best for me - not starving and waiting to eat until my stomach is twisting in hunger pains!  I’ve got such a hard head.

I’ve got a fear of the scale right now also, before I weighed myself every other day first thing in the morning without fail and that was very good for me.  Now - I’ve got “fear” in me of getting on that stupid thing.

Man - I’ve got issues!  LOL

Well, I’m off to another busy day.

Today’s focus again is going to be water intake.  I have my bottles packed and just knowing they are in the cooler will be a big plus!

This morning I reduced the amount of splenda packets that went into my coffee!  Down one pack.  I’m trying to go a bit more natural in the way I eat and run my life. I’d like to get to the point where I do not use splenda in my coffee at all.

Also - I’m one of these that usually eats a bigger meal in the morning and smaller in the evening and I’ve done very well getting  back to this way of thinking and eating.

Off for a bit of a walk before I get busy working!

It’s been busy and crazy around here.  Working my tail off to get stuff done!

Yesterday was ok - 4 bottles of water.

Today a bit better so far - up to 5 and the day is not over.  I’ve done well on my eating today even though it’s still to sporadic.  I need to work harder at eating smaller portions every few hours!

Today I will focus.  I’ve done this before, I can do it again.

After losing 60 pounds about a year and a half ago, my husband and I quit smoking and at the same time we began having serious problems with our teenage daughter.  The stopping smoking didn’t make be gain 20 of those pounds back I don’t believe.  I still kept the weight off until 2 months ago and then all of a sudden bam - I had gained 20 pounds and I’m not kidding you!  I kept my weight between 166 and 172 - that was my “safe zone”.  But in the last 2 months I have ballooned up to 186.

I have not gone to the gym since last August when the problems with the teenagers began to arise - I didn’t feel safe leaving the house and leaving her in charge of the other children  while I went to work out.  So I improvised at home.

These past 2 months - nothing.  The end of January through February and into March were killer.  Now that I think and look back and reflect.  I see the “little” things adding up.

I do not want that weight back on.  I miss that “I weigh 166 lbs” feeling.  It felt good, I felt light I felt like I could do anything.  Now, with the extra 20 back on it’s odd - I did not gain it in my upper body, I still have a waist and feel very slim on top.  It’s my hips and my ass.  My size 10s and 12s are not comfortable like they one were.

I loved walking into the clothing stores and buying clothes - at 166 I knew I would find pants that fit and fit right.  I will do this again.

Summer will be upon us soon and it’s starting to warm up outside.  This week I am watching very closely to what I eat.  I will journal this everyday - this is new to me, I have never journaled what I ate but now I feel it’s important after what has happened to my body in 2 months time.

This weeks focus will also be water.  I drink way to much diet pop.  While I am not ready to give up my diet coke “crutch” just yet, I do need to drink water and make sure I get my 6-8 bottles in a day.

I’m still not smoking and do not even want one unless I get a “whiff” of it and then it’s only for a few seconds that I have that urge.

Watch my calories today, journal everything that goes into this mouth and drink water.

I’m on my way to the grocery store to pick up some fruits and veggies that we are low on and that will help to have “good” things in the house.  I’ve cleaned out the “junk”that has snuck it’s way back into my home recently.  It’s gone for good, I’m done with it and my children do not need it.